Sometimes i wish...

There was a boy to hold my hand in public. Sometimes i wish there was a boy to wipe my tears from my checks. I sometimes wish there was a boy period in my life to care and love me when i feel the most vulnerable and lonely. On a daily basis i see women that don't deserve love, yet they have a faithful man to stay by their side. They have men to tell them they look beautiful when they feel ugly. They have a man to show them passion and comfort when they need it the most. I do not know why i feel the need to have a man around to fulfill these things. I have a great single life, but i find it's when i am completely alone that i feel the most lonely( meaning no one in the house, and no plans for the night.) Like tonight for instance, I got off work early and came home to a empty house with nothing good on t.v. to watch. Its those times i wish i had some one to talk to or hang out with other than friends. Someone i could have a emotional connection with, someone who will be there for the boring Saturday night's. To me, there are many women who take this for granted. Many women don't realize what they have till its gone, or they go out searching for greater things. Truly there shouldn't be anyone greater for you then what you have, unless they beat or abuse you then by all means there is something better in the sea. But why do many women cheat on what is so great already in their life? Why do they feel the need for more? Why are they not the one's on the couch, alone and cold on a boring Saturday night? Though i am 22 i am surely giving up. I know I'm not that old i have time, but i don't want time. I don't go out often and i don't party often, im at home alone and im tired of being home alone. I just wonder will it happen? will i find love? At this point im just giving up and waiting to be saved by some hunk. I also wonder if i will ever find anyone as good as my ex. The way he made me feel, the way i laughed. Will i laugh like that again, and feel that way again. Beautiful just the way i am? Or stuck and giving up in a hopeless sea.