Here's to hoping.

I have never been in such a strange place in my life as I am now. I am at a crossroads of what I want and need to do but am stuck in between, in limbo. It's hard when you wake up to the same thing every day, same routine, same people, and almost the same day.  Every day to me feels like ground hog day. Nothing changes from day to day and it just makes me feel stuck.  As I sit here on the eve of what could be the day that could potentially change my life I am only hopeful, attempting to keep my negative thoughts away, though I am struggling. I can only hope the next 48 hours brings a closure and meaning to the last new months but  I am hesitant. I can 

only hope and pray( something I rarely do) that this is the end of it and my struggle and it will soon be over so my new life and begging may start. With so many plans and dreams on the way all I can do is hope and hold on to a good attitude and the thought of that new life is what helps me through the next day.